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Tuesday, April 8, 2014

5 Years Ago Today


"I am your parent, you are my child. 
I am your quiet place, you are my wild."
~Maryann Cusimano


5 years ago today, God chose to make me a mother. 

He looked down into my neatly, organized life and thought, "I know how to shake things up for this girl!". And with that thought, He gave me a baby girl of my own. 

When I found out I was pregnant, I cried and then proceeded to convince myself that I knew absolutely everything there was to know about motherhood and parenting.

A baby is a piece of cake, right?! 

Wrong.

A baby is not a piece of cake. 

A baby will humble you. A baby will teach you things about yourself you didn't even know existed. A baby brings out a strength, a drive, and a protectiveness in you that you didn't even know you had. A baby produces words, sounds, and emotions from you that will literally leave you speechless at times. A baby makes everything else in the entire world seem like it pales in comparison. And before you know it, God has entrusted you to mother a beautiful, rambunctious, never-stops-talking, takes-thrity-eight-minutes-to-eat-anything, silly songs in the car, Disney princess stuff everywhere baby girl. 

You.

Just like He trusted Hannah with Samuel.

Just like He trusted Elizabeth with John the Baptist. 

Just like He trusted Mary with His Son. 

He trusted me with her...His Emma, and I have and always will take my job very seriously. 

She is and always will be my greatest accomplishment.

Did I know that fact or the fact that my life would be where it is today 5 years ago?

 No. I didn't. 

But you know, I wouldn't change one moment of our journey. Everything we've been through-she and I-has brought us that much closer. We have a bond that she will never have with another human being on this earth.

She is my child.

I am her mother.

And no matter where this life takes us that will never change. 

Today, I feel incredibly blessed to be Emma's mother. Today, I have looked at myself in the mirror more than once and reminded myself that even though it feel like I'm failing at everything right now, she is the one thing I AM doing right, and that is enough.

Motherhood is enough. 

She is enough.  

Happy birthday, baby girl.

I can't wait to see where this year takes us.


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