Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Yesterday, I started my first official big girl job in almost 4 1/2 years. Nervous was an understatement. I will be working as an administrative assistant for a local property management company. This is a huge step away from my norm. I have only worked as an administrative assistant in the health care field since I was 14 years old, so I definitely have a lot to learn. I am thankful for my new employer's willingness to teach me, and they want to get me to a place where I am managing my own properties! Exciting, huh?! I think the knowledge I will learn from this job can only better me, and it will definitely be an asset in my future business administration degree. For the first time in a few weeks, I am kind of excited about the future.
I'm still not totally sure how I'm going to juggle single mommyhood with a full-time job, but Emma and I are pretty resilient and we will make it work. We HAVE to make it work. Failure is not an option. This job is a crucial piece to the puzzle which is our future, and I am excited to see where it's going to lead us.
On that note, I just wanted to say how thankful I am for my baby girl. She has truly been the anchor holding me to this planet over the last three weeks. Her unconditional love for me and her sweet demeanor are proof that in the middle of my mess I continue to do at least one thing right. I love how God teaches us grace through our children. It's amazing how children are always so forgiving no matter how many times the stress makes you raise your voice, or stick them in front of another movie because you are just too overwhelmed to play. Emma is always there smiling and laughing and forgiving me my faults. At least to her I am still a hero, and capable of anything. If I could just learn to see myself through her eyes, I would be so much better off.
Well, I'm off to day #2! Wish me luck! I'm still a long ways from my dreams, goals, and from finding that girl I want to be, but I feel like this job is my way of picking myself up and starting over. For me, at least today, my future is looking bright and I could not be more thankful.